The No Safe Word Blog

Contributor - Pup Skoll - Sleepsack Heaven

2012-02-08T21:51:00.000-08:00

I just got in some pics from Pup Skoll of his last weekend of fun. The pup very kindly offered to help me out with a problem I have been having with my rubber sleepsack, the lack of access! He was able to put in a front zipper on my back zip sleepsack, giving it a lot more range of use. Will be posting up some pics of it soon!

He was going to be hanging with his friends, and I encouraged him to make good use of it, and as you can see from below they had a great time with it and a few more sleepsacks! Tynanfox was in the pewter sleepsack with attached gasmask in the back of the photos, made by Pup Skoll himself. The pup was then in my Regulation S10 sleepsack next to him, followed by spndx7hero in the metallic blue sleepsack (also made by Pup Skoll). And finally TennRoper86 was in a Mr S sleepsack in the foreground.

And finally the pup's good friend and amazing photographer mplsguy took the photos!

Layered spandex

2012-02-08T21:49:00.001-08:00

A boy named Sven

2012-02-08T21:49:00.000-08:00

Video - Bondage Boy Afternoon - Part 3

2012-02-07T08:18:00.000-08:00

So the afternoon of play that I did with Cypherrub is ready to be taken to a close as I show the final part of the total scene with him. You can catch up on what was happening by checking out Part 1 and Part 2.

After the bondage upstairs amongst the Christmas decorations, it was time to take him downstairs to the playroom, where I got him all nice and snug in the neoprene sleepsack. To ensure he wasn't going to go anywhere I added straps around the sleepsack, as well as some rope to the bondage table. And of course a gag and a blindfold to keep him quiet.

I then fitted on his balls the electro ball crusher, which on this boy didn't need to be on too tight before the poor guy was in pain, such sensitive balls! The current made sure he was paying attention.

Now when you watch the video you will see how I changed him from wanting to cum to someone who was fighting me to cum, which he did a pretty good job at. While the video is only 11 minutes long, the edging as he fought against me went on for a very long time.

Unfortunately for him I know the key to getting him off, as you will see.

There are going to be those out there that wonder why I didn't really carry out the punishment I threatened to give. Remember, there is always the long game to play with the boy's mind. He will be back, and when he does he will have to worry if I am going to do it this time or not. But his need to get tied up and used is greater than his fear.

Maybe it will be next time. Maybe I will even be able to get him to ask me to do it. Yeah, that sounds like a fun challenge.

Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=ukiwv-G362-

Didn't know they gave out plaques for dick size

2012-02-07T08:16:00.002-08:00

Wetsuit!

2012-02-07T08:16:00.001-08:00

Biking Singlets make him giggle

2012-02-07T08:16:00.000-08:00

Pics - Football Puppy!

2012-02-04T09:47:00.000-08:00

So last weekend a few of us went out. My husband, Dvous1, was all decked out in leathers, as you just saw in a previous post. And we were joined by our future roommate, Dreadfire and his friend jblack046, who was here visiting for the weekend. We also were joined by Daddy Tony and Bndgkid. After a night out on the town, mostly due to me having to work early the next morning, we decieded to postpone some late night play to the following night.

It was worth the wait.

After watching a show and eating some pizza, we headed down to the playroom, and a scene that ended up being a little complicated but a lot of fun started.

Tomorrow I will share the pics of Dreadfire and jblack046, but for now, going to start with the photos of Bndgkid.

It has been a little while since I did a scene where I use a ton of rope, and the pup really wanted to be tied in his football gear, which was totally fine by me. A simple body harness, up the mid section and tied down each arm and leg, was going to be the basis of the tie before starting the process of tying each point to the frame, cutting off is ability to move much at all.

When we started the rope I let him watch, but once all the rope was done we hooded him in my dog hood, complete with gag and blindfold.

All the while the other two boys are riding an electro ride while they were both in sleepsacks and being teased by Daddy Tony. Once the pup was secure in this web, I gave him a taste of the upcoming ball torture he was going to get, then left him alone to struggle in the ropes until we returned.

Once the we were done with the other boys, it was time for the pups torture to begin. But I think that we will have to wait for the video footage to be done on that one.

Serenity now.... serenity now...

2012-02-04T09:46:00.001-08:00

Ball Tossing

2012-02-04T09:46:00.000-08:00

Hot running team

2012-02-03T21:22:00.002-08:00

Crew boys

2012-02-03T21:22:00.001-08:00

Pics - Dvous1 in Leather

2012-02-03T21:22:00.000-08:00

Prior to a night out with friends to the bars, the husband (dvous1) asked me to take some photos of him in the leather he was wearing for the night. I have to admit, they turned out pretty well, as you can see!

I am a lucky man!

Who wants to go for a ride

2012-02-03T09:31:00.002-08:00

Looks like a fun boy

2012-02-03T09:31:00.001-08:00

I love Canada!

2012-02-03T09:31:00.000-08:00

Blogs to Follow - Humping the world one leg at a time!

2012-02-03T08:35:00.000-08:00

Quick Weekend Wrap Up

2012-01-30T09:37:00.000-08:00

I am going to give a quick round up of the weekend, because it was pretty amazing, but only have time to go over a couple of things. Will be posting more info soon.

There has been something has been a very negative drag on my emotional side from my professional life, but it looks like there is going to be a very positive resolution to it. There is a lot of work that is going to be needed to get there, but this weekend felt like there needed to be some celebration that a corner had finally been turned. I know I am being vague, but I really can't be any more specific. All I can say is: Woohoo!

Saturday a few of us gathered at our house for a quick drink before heading out to the Cuff to meet up with friends. In addition to my leather covered husband (damn the chaps look good on him, pic of that later) Dvous1, we were joined by Dreadfire, Daddy Tony, his boy bndgkid, and joining us from Illinois, jblack046.

Now we tried to figure out how to take as few cars as possible, and the only way to make that work was to put someone in the trunk, so a hooded and straitjacketed bndgkid went into the trunk for the ride to the bar.

Once at the bar we ran into all sorts of kinksters that was fun to connect with. Got see and make a future playdate with SoundsFun, and was good to see his damn hot partner Happyfrosh. Got to run into Nightcat and the gaggle of furries he was running around with, all of which were adorable and hot! I ran into wnotgfi whom some of you remember from some of my first videos, he was as cute as ever and need to tie him up again! Also got to meet a new transplant to town, arcticfoxmelb, who I think is going to be a fun puppy to play with.

There were a lot more people there, but I need to get to work so going to cut this short and say if I didn't mention you it wasn't a slight in any way!

The energy of the night was great, there was a lot going on and we had a great time all around. At first bndgkid had the straitjacket on in the bar, and I told him he could ask to have it taken off but someone else had to go in it. So he found nightcat as a willing victim!

We eventually had to head home, however, so the jacket and hood went on the guest from out of town, so jblack046 got to ride in the trunk on the way home while we stopped for food and across the bridge back home.

I had to work on Sunday, but overall it was a good day of work and accomplished much, then returned home in time for my crew from the night before to returned. After a bit of talk, pizza and an episode of one of our favorite comedies, it was time to head to the playroom.

We all ganged up on dreadfire and jblack046 to get them in sleepsacks on the same bondage table (head to toe), and slapped on some electro to keep them busy. We then worked on getting bndgkid tied up and secured in a nice rope web, making sure the foot ball puppy didn't go anywhere.

While all this was going on the ebay auctions ended, and I end up getting my goals met for the auctions! The great news is this means that I will be getting my sleepsack that I have been coveting! So can't wait to get that ordered, but you know I am going to be all over sharing that on here once it arrives!

There is going to more pics, more videos coming very soon from the adventures of the weekend!

Thank you again to all the support and love that is sent my way from the readers of this blog, it has helped a lot in some rough times recently and appreciate everyone.

Your next boy

2012-01-30T09:36:00.002-08:00

Why don't more biking boys wear gasmasks

2012-01-30T09:36:00.001-08:00

Aww, I think the like each other

2012-01-30T09:36:00.000-08:00

Ready to hose the bitch down

2012-01-28T12:02:00.001-08:00

One of my favorite positions to tie boys...

2012-01-28T12:02:00.000-08:00

Exposed

2012-01-28T12:01:00.001-08:00

Ebay Auction - Mr S Shoulder Zip Latex Catsuit

2012-01-28T12:01:00.000-08:00

The following is for a latex catsuit from Mr S. It is a shoulder zip suit, with a zip on the crotch area running through to the top of the ass, allowing for great access. This suit is sized large.

This suit has been well loved for and well taken care of, kept in a plastic bag throughout its life. It has a lot of life left in it, and fits wonderfully.

Here is what Mr S says about their own suit:

If you really love the tight feeling of Rubber, nothing does it like a Full Body Latex Cat Suit.

This is one our most popular styles with and Two Shoulder Zippers for neck entry and a 3 pull All Round Zip at the crotch to the back of the waist.. This gives you access to your cock and balls & Butt without having to take your suit off during play. A lot of guys like this style because of the completely smooth chest area without any upper front zipper.

· The 2 shoulder zippers also look really hot as a way to get into the suit.

· May require some help from your buddy when zipping up these shoulder zips if your fingers are slippery.

· Made from 20 gauge natural gum latex, this suit will feel like you have a second skin on of slippery shinny rubber.

Click Here to check out the Auction

Ebay Auction - Ze Cable Ass Lock

2012-01-26T21:55:00.000-08:00

This device is known as an ass lock, combining a cock ring to a butt plug. The ring is connected via a cable that ensures that the wearer feels the device with each step . The cable is steal, but bends and flexs a little, so that it conforms to you. Also, the plug piece can move along the cable for comfort and flexibility.

The device additionally features two different plugs, a 1-1/4” plug and a 1-1/2” plug that can easily be changed.

The ring runs on the small, snug side so best for those that are not heavily endowed.

This device retails for $170, so the low starting bid means you have a chance to pick up a great piece of gear for a low price!

Click HERE to check out the auction

Tied army boys...

2012-01-26T21:27:00.002-08:00

Taped Frat Guy

2012-01-26T21:27:00.001-08:00

Blogs to Follow - Kinkidivers' Bondage Lodge

2012-01-26T21:27:00.000-08:00

Followers of the blog know that I have played a lot in recent years with my friend Kinkidiver, featuring him in several of my play sessions as both a Dom and a sub. He is one of the first people I have met in the kink world and both he and his partner are people that I feel fortunate enough to call friends.

He has recently started his own blog, called Kinkidiver's Bondage Lodge. It is certainly one of those blogs you should add to your list!

Additionally there is a write up of a recent visit he made to beat on my nuts, was a lot of fun and a great afternoon surprise.

For some

Video - Bondage Boy Afternoon - Part 2

2012-01-25T16:34:00.000-08:00

In Part 1 we left off with Cypherrub just as he was fully tied up and ready to begin the scene, but was interrupted by a delivery. But now it is time to get started on the giving the boy some good hard play.

Gear Used In this Video
Fetters Padded Locking Wrist Restraints

Fetters Padded Locking Ankle Restraints

Neoprene Locking Bondage Collar
Neoprene Breather Gag

Ultra Blindfold
Clejuso Heavy Weight Handcuffs
Ass Hook Stainless Steel
Ultra Knee Pad and Shin Guard

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=vucGn-G861-

Video - Bondage Boy Afternoon - Part 1

2012-01-25T09:22:00.000-08:00

I had been talking with my buddy Cypherrub about him coming over for a day of true submission for a bit, and finally there was a day when both of our schedules meshed enough for it to happen.

Shortly before he was due to arrive I sent him instructions via text. I didn't want to have to go through the pleasantries of friends meeting each other then awkwardly getting ready to play, I wanted him in boy mode the moment he arrived. He was told to come in the house through the garage. Once inside he was to strip and put on whatever it was that was left for him by the door.

All that was there was a pair of Clejuso Heavy Weight Handcuffs.

He was then told to come to the living room on his knees and submit to me immediately. When he arrived to the room he found me waiting in my chair, in my riot gear and a gasmask hood. He craweled over to me and I forced him to clean my boots, getting the taste of the leather in his mouth. Then I took my cock out for him to start blowing me, sometimes I would use my boots to hold him close and suffocate him with my cock and holding his nose, knowing how much he loves breath control.

The boy needed to suffer a bit, so it was tie to truss him up. I fitted him with a gag, a blindfold, and a collar first, then the ankle cuffs and the wrist cuffs. I also decided to put on a pair of very comfy knee pads, as the boy was going to spend a lot of time on his knees.

I roped him into a vulnerable position to ensure he wasn't going to be able to move away from standing on his knees. Just to be sure he wasn't going to go anywhere, I also put an ass hook into him, then connected that to the ropes, so each time the boy moved or squirmed it would go right to his ass.

No you may ask the video ends right at this point, since it looked like we were just getting started. I had a delivery scheduled for later that afternoon of a new appliance, and just as I got him to this position I heard the truck arriving. I had planned to be finished with this part and have him squirreled away in the play room, but the damn delivery people arrived early, and I had the boy right in the path of where they needed to go to get to the kitchen.

I scooped the boy and all the toys up, tossing him over my shoulders and hauled him to the guest bedroom and unceremoniously tossing him to the bed. Stripped gear off just in time for the door bell to ring, I locked the door, leaving the poor bewildered boy to wonder what was going on and why he was suddenly hidden away.

Now I could have cut all this out, with the magic of editing I could have made the narrative smooth and hot, but I liked the way it ended up. Just as the boy was getting ready to start receiving his abuse, everything went to a very unexpected turn, and he was a boy locked away, tied up and fully gagged in a room right next to where he could hear voices of strangers and loud bangs of something moving around.

I let him stew like that for a while, then once the delivery was complete I hauled him back out. That will be part 2.

Gear Used In this Video
Fetters Padded Locking Wrist Restraints

Fetters Padded Locking Ankle Restraints

Neoprene Locking Bondage Collar
Neoprene Breather Gag

Ultra Blindfold
Clejuso Heavy Weight Handcuffs

Ass Hook Stainless Steel
Ultra Knee Pad and Shin Guard

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=hZbSZ-G761-

Blogs to Follow - FOX: World of Bondage and Fetish

2012-01-25T09:21:00.003-08:00

Hot Surfers

2012-01-25T09:21:00.002-08:00

Buddy made to watch

2012-01-25T09:21:00.001-08:00

Leather Gimpdom!

2012-01-25T09:21:00.000-08:00

Ebay Auctions

2012-01-23T20:16:00.000-08:00

So I have put up a bunch of stuff that is just not getting use like it should, so I have decided to put it out there for Ebay auctions. I will be featuring some of the items on the blog to highlight what is up there in between all the other content that I have planned this week!

But feel free to take a took if you want to see what is up there!

Check out my Ebay Auctions

Neoprene WOOF! Muzzle

2012-01-23T08:51:00.002-08:00

A few months back I did a piece about various forms of dog hoods (see Puppy Hood - What is the Right One) where I tried to provide a review of some of the different hoods out there.

Well this week you can find the cool WOOF! Muzzle in Neoprene at a discounted price. If you have been thinking about getting one, now is the time!

His priest is proud he is wearing a cross

2012-01-23T08:51:00.001-08:00

Awesome straitjacket Series

2012-01-23T08:51:00.000-08:00

Video - Pup Striker - Part 2

2012-01-22T11:20:00.000-08:00

Taking up the play from part 1 (see Pup Striker - Part 1) it was time to start the ball play and edging of the puppy. After getting fully roped up in a nicely exposed position, I began a process of jacking the puppy, cutting off his air, and playing with his sensitive balls.

One of my favorite parts of playing with puppies is the wonderful sounds they make when you play with him, and pup striker is a very vocal boy.

So can't wait to play with him again!

Gear Used in this Video
Padded Fist Mitts
Ultra Blindfold
Neoprene Breather Gag
Neoprene Locking Bondage Collar

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=804So-G461-

Wish List: Mr S Deluxe Sleepsack

2012-01-22T10:56:00.000-08:00

So I have been saving up for a sleepsack. Currently I have 5 of them, but each of them are fairly inexpensive ones, not have had that feeling of being a solid piece of bondage gear like a real sleepsack, so I have been coveting one for a long time.

First I was drawn to a sleepsack that I have been in under the hands of BindNlocK (as seen in Video - In the Leather Sleepsack, Video - Electro Punishment, and Video - BindNlocK Sleepsack) to the sleepsack that is called the Essential Leather Sleepsack. It is a great piece, very snug and feels like you are well secured at all times. Getting to be in one of these with BindNlock made me really want one.

So I set a goal of saving up for one, putting away small amounts for it, as well as whatever the generous readers of this site who have clicked on the ad from this site to make their purchases, all going towards an Essential Leather Sleepsack.

The great news is that I have reached my goal. However, the challenge is that someone recently made me rethink my goal.

A few weeks ago we had over some friends (see Pic Set - Bndgkid All Bound Up) who brought with them their Deluxe All-Leather Sleepsack for the evenings festivities. That was when the desire to have one of my own was rekindled, and the seed was planted to get one of my own.

Now it isn't like I haven't experienced them before. My first video posted to this blog was in Rubbersasylum's sleepsack that was the same (see Video - 3 Boys and a Milker), and have been in that same sleepsack numerous times since, so I have really appreciated it.

But truthfully it always seemed out of reach, as it is a very expensive piece of gear.

Well, I think that I have found a way. There is a lot of gear in my playroom that I just don't play with anymore. So this week we are going to put it up on Ebay and see what we can get out of it. Hopefully it will get me that much closer to my goal.

I so can't wait to have one of these of my own!

...Butt Bitch

2012-01-22T10:54:00.000-08:00

Peek-A-Boo...

2012-01-22T10:53:00.002-08:00

Back from Vacation!

2012-01-22T00:43:00.000-08:00

So there was MAL, then getting snowed into the house made me want to focus on getting a few things done around the house that have been languishing, so I haven't been posting nearly as often as I should be. That and the fact that we have been running on unreliable internet during the big snow storm and I just haven't' be able to keep up with the blog.

That doesn't mean, however, that I have forgotten about everyone here, and got a lot of fun stuff planned coming up that I am really excited to get out there. So stay tuned!

Sparky

Video - Pup Striker - Part 1

2012-01-18T18:53:00.000-08:00

Before this year's Mister International Rubber contest in Chicago I started talking with a local pup there, Pup Striker. He is a cute pup and ready for most anything.

Must of what we did I didn't necessarily capture on tape, mostly because I was focused on him, but there were a couple of fun parts, particularly when the electro hit just the right spot to send him to fits of laughter, then waves of pleasure/pain.

Throw in a bit of breath control with the bondage was just the recipe for the first part of this scene.

We will see more in part 2!

Direct Link to Video

http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=VP10I-G461-

Blogs to Follow! - Superhero Defilers!

2012-01-18T17:41:00.000-08:00

Heading to MAL 2012 - A Look back to Last Year

2012-01-11T00:41:00.001-08:00

I leave in the morning to head to this year's MAL, so last year's has been on my mind. It was a big event for me, as there was two really big events.

First and foremost I was able to meet for the first time the boy that has become my puppy, and got to spend a little bit of time getting to know him. d0ppel has been a good boy to me, and this weekend will be good to get some puppy time with him again.

I also had my first hypno experience last year, which was definitely an interesting experience! You can read all about it by going to the following links:

http://nosafeword.blogspot.com/2011/01/mal-hypno-bondage.html
http://nosafeword.blogspot.com/2011/01/mal-hypno-bondage-part-2.html
http://nosafeword.blogspot.com/2011/03/mal-hypno-final-installment.html

I know that Neil the Erotic Hypnotist will be at MAL, and if you are interested in securing his services at the event, you can contact him through the contact page on his site, located at http://erotic-hypno.com/

Blogs to Follow - SIR TO YOU PIGS!

2012-01-11T00:41:00.000-08:00

Past Play: Dvous1 Spreader Bar

2012-01-08T11:22:00.000-08:00

This was back from when we first moved in together, and still a memorable scene. The spreader bar is one that I made years earlier, and I was trying to think of a way to incorporate it into a scene unlike I had ever before.

For this one I had the boy get in his leather (Cod Piece Brief, Leather Chaps), and I did a bit of rope work on him to get him nicely restrained, with the help of some Four Buckle Hand Restraints. Looking back on these scene now makes me think of how far I have come with my rope work, and how much further I have to go.

After blindfolding the boy and playing with him a bit, I laid him out on the bed and attached the spreader bar to the ankle restraints, then connected the spreader bar to the ropes for a nicely effective hog tie.

The fun came in when I tied one of his favorite dildos to the spreader bar. All I had to do was sit back and watch the boy fuck himself while completely helpless.

Makes for a good show!

Gear Used in this Photo Set

Ultra Blindfold

Four Buckle Hand Restraints

Cod Piece Brief

Leather Chaps

Fetters Padded Locking Ankle Restraints

Ice Lock on sale!

2012-01-08T10:48:00.001-08:00

These have been on the list of things to add to the play room. The Stainless Steel Ice Lock has got to be one of the great ways to create a headtrip for long term bondage, especially when it is combined with the 7 Ring Metal Parachute, like in the photos below.

As Mr S said in the ad:

"Pigs be warned. The ice lock is going to drive you wild. Tie that boy up and leave him there to struggle. He can thrash and scream all he wants but until the ice melts and the locking pin releases, he’s your captive. The smaller ice lock will give you about 30 minutes. Get about 90 minutes from the larger ice lock. Really fuck with his mind and let the frozen cold steel sweat onto his back. Why not dangle a handcuff key just out of his reach and make him wait to escape? We love head trips."

And the price has been lowered to a great price, time to pick one up now!

Muscle Studs

2012-01-08T10:48:00.000-08:00

Batters Up

2012-01-08T10:47:00.001-08:00

Clean the pig out

2012-01-08T10:47:00.000-08:00

New Years Day Bondage

2012-01-07T12:25:00.000-08:00

I have been a little slow in updates this week primarily because I have been trying to put into words the experience of New Years day. It was one of the most wild trips I have had the pleasure of being a part of.

First I want to tell everyone to head on over to the blog that was recently set up by Kinkidiver, which is called Kinkidiver's Bondage Lodge. There you can see the event from his perspective, but going to try to explain my side, as best as I can.

It was new year's day and I was over at MitchSeattle's house hanging out with the gang there, finally learning to play bridge for the first time (and learning I have a lot to learn about it) when Kinkidiver said it was time to head down to the playroom. Earlier our friend Kevin had been giving me a few cokes in a not too subtle hint of what he was hoping to soon happen.

We went down to the playroom and before entering had a few moments talking and pre-func'ing before hand (all natural, I assure you), though I will admit I might have had a bit much in that department because by the time we were starting I was already a bit loopy. Kinkidiver gave me one of this modified wetsuits to wear, one that has full access, then put on a deprivation hood with an internal respirator mask. I was totally cut off from the word around me, and he had the ability to cut off my air whenever he wanted.

Now at this point I was a bit nervous for 3 big reasons. The first being that I always get a bit nervous playing with Kinkidiver. No matter how many times I have become involved in heavy cbt type of play, each time I am not sure I am going to be able to take it and not come out looking like a wimp. Part of the reason why I like it so much is the fact that I over come the intense part of it. The second reason I was nervous was that the last time we had played, on my birthday, while there were intense moments (see back to this post), there was a comment by Kinkidiver after that I have at times taken more. I was sure this scene on new year's he was going to try to push me a bit farther, thus adding to the nervous level.

Also, it had been a while since I was in that playroom, the last time being a moment for me that was profound and highly emotional, one that I have not nor will not be sharing here because of the personal nature of it. In many ways I was stripped bare before Mitchseattle, and went to a place that I still in some ways have to sort through mentally. So this place I went into was full of a special kind of emotionally charged energy for me, not to mention all the energy of all the other play that happened in that room over the years.

So here I was standing in a full wetsuit, hooded, knowing something that was going to push me in a place that I have been pushed hard before. My heart was bounding. At the same time, I had to piss like no one's business, those cokes rolling through. And Kevin was thirsty and ready, so my nerves were calmed as his hot, wet mouth wrapped around my dick and patiently waited for the flow, which didn't take long to start. That calmed me down quite a bit.

I was lead blindly over to the floating bondage table that was suspended from the ceiling by chain, and strapped down to the table. The process was taking a moment, but while they worked away on getting everything into place, I was getting to a place of that floating bondage bliss I am used to, that moment when you are helpless and let go physically and mentally. Little did I know at that moment, when I was relishing the experience, that I had no idea just how far that feeling can go.

The bondage table would move a little bit, but between my altered state, my heightened senses due to the nervousness of where I was, as well as the hood taking away any visual reference, the movement of the table was resulting in a bit of disorientation. Just as the floaty bondage bliss came on it seemed to me as if the table with twisting from side to side, when in reality it was likely a small swinging motion as they both moved it while working on the straps. I knew in my head the configuration of the chain would not allow for it to twist, yet that is what I was feeling.

I was starting to get a little concerned about this spinning just as they were applying a ball vice and electrodes, as I was afraid of becoming nauseous and having to ask to be let out early (horniness is my worst enemy, I swear), when the electro started to come on the twist became a spin, and rather suddenly.

In just a few moments my world really felt as if it was going around in circles so fast I couldn't' tell which direction I was going anymore, and I really just floated away. My awareness of where I was went away. I wasn't thinking about the sounds of the room around me or who was there, what they were doing. I wasn't thinking about the feeling on my dick, which I was registering as pleasurable at times, but couldn't focus on what or how it was happening. There was moments of pain to my nuts, and I was start to feel like the spin was slowing down, and I was floating back into myself, but just as quickly as those moments came I was gone again.

Time was gone.

Thought was gone.

I was gone.

There were times when I would come back to earth, when I could tell I was back again to myself and fully aware of what was happening, but those times where when my air was cut off, my balls were being crushed or pounded, and I was in a near panic. At the same time I was having the most intense orgasms I ever had, orgasms that was causing my whole body to shake and come off the table if not for the straps.

The best way to think of these two states is like this. Most of the time I was in a place disconnected from my reality and my body. Then I was pulled back to a spot where my reality is back, but because of pounding to my balls and the bondage I was in, there was an utter lack of control of my body.

Then I would float off again, just as quickly as those moments of being back had seemed to arrive, they would go away again.

It wasn't for what seemed to be a while that I could eventually make out there was voices talking, but I couldn't understand the words at first. Then the words were clear, but I couldn't understand what they were for, what the meaning was, or even that they were being directed at me. When I realized that they were telling me something all that I could manage was a muffled "huh" kind of sound.

The two things I learned after they got me off the table and sitting nearby with some water was kind of surprising. First, Kinkidiver said at one point I was taking some of the hardest ball beating he has ever given anyone. And two, the orgasms that I felt were likely only in my head, because nothing was coming out.

I can't explain that second one. The only times I have experienced that level of orgasms so intense I couldn't actually spooge was when I under hypnosis last year at MAL, which was kind of similar. All I know is it felt like I came, and came and came again. And felt that way into the next day still.

It was an incredible moment, a unique experience that I am happy to have been through.

And maybe again someday!

Chlorinating Rubber - A Reprise

2012-01-07T10:57:00.000-08:00

I have been contacted recently by a few people that have asked me about chlorinating rubber gear, so I decided I would repost the links back to the articles I put up on my own experiences with putting some of my gear through the process.

Hopefully some will find it helpful!

http://nosafeword.blogspot.com/2011/05/rubber-chlorination-experiment.html

http://nosafeword.blogspot.com/2011/06/rubber-chlorination-details.html

Love a slobbering man

2012-01-07T10:01:00.001-08:00

Riding the Rubber Boy

2012-01-07T10:01:00.000-08:00

Blogs to Follow - A Thousand Pains, for One Pleasure

2012-01-07T10:00:00.000-08:00

If you haven't found the blog run by Rubberfreak, called A Thousand Pains for One Pleasure, you need to go check it out. He has been providing a lot of great information over there, including the latest post about how to replace the lens on an S10 gasmask!

Blogs to Follow - Baring My Sole

2012-01-03T08:33:00.003-08:00

Football Boys

2012-01-03T08:33:00.002-08:00

Hot Surfers

2012-01-03T08:33:00.001-08:00

Tough Position

2012-01-03T08:33:00.000-08:00

Video - Cuffs and Chains

2012-01-01T13:03:00.000-08:00

A few months ago I had posted up some pics from a scene where I used the new heavy cuffs I got for the boyfriend (Dvous1) for his birthday. Both Part 1 and Part 2 gave a more detailed account, but now it is time for the video from that scene!

Gear Used in this Video
Clejuso Heavy Weight Handcuffs
Fetters Padded Locking Ankle Restraints
Wide Top Leather Harness
Ultra Blindfold
Head Harness Muzzle
Eros Tek ET302R 2 Channel Remote Controlled E-Stim Unit
Electrified WMCBP (Electro Butt Plug)
Corcoran Field II Combat Boot

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=YH11O-G560-

Singlet Boys

2012-01-01T13:01:00.002-08:00

Fuck Toy

2012-01-01T13:01:00.001-08:00

Blogs to Follow - bootbrush

2012-01-01T13:01:00.000-08:00

Pic Set - Bndgkid All Bound Up

2011-12-31T10:47:00.000-08:00

After talking about it for a bit, we found the time for BndgDaddy and Bndgkid to come over for some play. The boy, who is a regular contributor over at Rubberasylum.net, mentioned he is going to do a write up over there, so you need to keep a watch out for the details on that over there, but for now a few pics from the scene is a good starter!

Gear Used In this Pic Set

MS S Deluxe All-Leather Sleepsack

Leather Puffy Hood

E232

Electro Flexi Ball

PES Corona Urethral Stimulator

UZI Stun Gun

Waiting for his Fate

2011-12-31T10:26:00.002-08:00

Heroes

2011-12-31T10:26:00.001-08:00

Not Going Anywhere

2011-12-31T10:26:00.000-08:00

The Birthday Post

2011-12-25T19:47:00.000-08:00

I didn't celebrate my birthday with a lot of fanfair, rather wanting to spend the day at home with a bit of self-reflection on the year before and the year ahead, then had some friends over for dinner.

My buddy, Kinkidiver came over a bit early before dinner and based on an earlier conversation him, he came into the playroom on arrival to find me already stewing hooded, gagged and bound up in the sleepsack. The electro on my balls and in my ass pulsing to put me in the proper headspace for when he was ready to start.

While he played around with the electro and beat my balls I struggled away, but with straps and rope add around the table I could barely wiggle, and certainly couldn't get away.

Unfortunately I forgot to hid the Uzi Stun Gun, which I haven't really used much of yet.

But the promise of a hit from that thing direct to my balls when I came really was motivating me to not get off.

Unfortunatley, a few hours in the sleepsack on constant electro was too much for me to stop myself from getting off under the constantant milking and banging on my balls.

The result of the stun gun to the balls right at the moment of cumming speaks for itself.

Despite all the rope, straps and the sleepsack itself, I managed to break a bolt on the bondage table.

The camera wasn't rolling on this one, but that is ok. I got my revenge on Kinkidiver, and also recreated much the scene with a local boy a couple of days later, all on camera and coming soon.

Quite the birthday!

Christmas Rope!

2011-12-22T08:59:00.000-08:00

So I am sitting here with a pile of new rope that my hubby got me for Christmas. Since we are heading to go see the family and it arrived yesterday, he decided to give it to me early. And I couldn't be happier, been meaning to get some rope like this for a while.

This is a nice, high quality hemp rope, and there is definitely a difference between it and the kinds of rope you are going to get in a hardware store. For one thing the rope bites itself well, so it doesn't slip around on you as you are working through the tie, really helpful when you are doing something complicated. Also, since the rope is working against itself, it isn't working against the skin as much, thus making the rope much easier to have on for longer periods of time. If I had used the cheap stuff I got from the hardware store for the tie below the boy would have been more sore and I would have had to pay more attention to circulation issues. For the set below Dvous1 was in this position for the entire scene.

I have mentioned it before, my husband is the world's best bj artist. Not trying to knock anyone else, and I have had a lot of great bj's, but my boy is over the top. So I like to find ways to force him into it, though he is more than willing to do it whenever. Just more fun to force him and fuck his face hard. He thinks so as well.

Getting the Leather Puffy Hood with the wide mouth on it was definitely a good idea, this hood is perfect for blow jobs. Makes the boy get into the full bondage headspace, but still accessible for service.

And makes for a great set of pics, and certaily a few way to break in the new rope! Can't wait to continue practicing

Blogs to Follow! - A year under lock and key

2011-12-22T08:53:00.000-08:00

Bouncer's New Suit!

2011-12-21T23:35:00.000-08:00

I was recently contacted by pup bouncer, who was telling me that he was going to help support the blog by getting his new suit from Mr S by clicking through the banner ads. I have to say I am very grateful for his choice to do that, and he sent in some pics to show us the results.

And as you can see form the pics below, he makes for a very hot puppy!

WRRRUUUUFFFF!!!!

For those that are curious, what the pup got was a Latex Catsuit Cod Piece Should Zips.

Hey Sparky,

I had meant to give ya these somewhat sooner but I've either been too busy and spaced it or....enjoying my rubber too much (Seriously, way too much, lol). I really need to remember to bring a camera out when I play with my friends because I totally SUCK at taking pics of myself, probably because I get way too distracted after I gear up ;-) I also didn't know if it was the right time, you see, since on my way up to see my Owner this weekend I read your post about personal struggles and after I got the suit this past Tuesday, I wasn't sure if it was the right time.

I just didn't want to seem insensitive or self centered :3 I then thought, hey, maybe this will cheer him up at least! So there ya go, hehe. About the suit itself; it is absolutely....incredible. I don't think even that does it justice...it's like the summation of every fetish I have about TIGHT stuff rolled into ONE piece of gear that is completely flawless in quality, feel and style. I have always wanted to feel rubber all over my body and, for the first time, I have and it really is completely bodacious XD Believe it or not, the shoulder zips are HARD to get closed by yourself but, I managed and found a way to make it fairly simple from here on out ;D The ability to put in my tail while wearing it was SO worth the ~3 week wait and for a garment not made to my specific measurements, it sure fits perfectly, only areas of contention are slightly under the knees and around the ankles but my boots will cover that most of the time.

I pretty much have made the transformation I've always wanted to from human to pup and since my pup trigger(s) seem to focus on gear in general, it's like I've evolved into the pup I always wanted to be. Ever since discovering this community and this form of role play I wanted to look and feel the way I do now and it's left me feeling so....fulfilled, happy, ecstatic (every positive adjective ever, lol). When I first saw myself, all geared up like this, I just kept barkin' and rollin' around in astonishment and glee that I finally made such a transformation. I guess it's the feeling of hiding away my human appearance and just being this pervy little puppy that makes me go wild, I dunno, maybe I seem a little obsessed (believe me, I'd probably agree with you). All this excitement also has a lot to do with my personal journey from.....well, a very bad, abusive, controlling and all around hellish relationship into this new found life where I can express myself and, now, fully realize my fantasies with great friends and people to share these experiences with along the way. It all just leaves me feeling super grateful and fulfilled, not just sexually but emotionally and psychologically. Even you just wanting to see my pictures makes me feel so happy to be able to share a piece of myself with people and they enjoy seeing what I have to share; it makes me feel like I belong in this community and I'm going in the right direction :) Grrrrrrrr Woof, but anyways, lol, got on a tangent there (see how excited of a puppy I've become? and I'm just TALKING about rubber, this is why I'm named Bouncer cuz I'm so excited I bounce around all the time >_<') Feel free to do with these whatever you see fit broski and again, thanks a bunch! It's people like you that make newbies feel comfortable enough to poke their heads up and explore things to better find themselves and it's people like you that make our community so goddamn fantastic!! *Mega Lix* WOOF!!!!! *wagwagwagz*

Oh, by the way, I hope things are going fine for you and that everything works out okay, I know ya don't know me from Adam but you are a really awesome person and I just hope you can get your head back to where ya want it, Sparky :-) Best of luck to you!

Christmas Ornament

2011-12-21T17:33:00.000-08:00

So my friend of many years, puppy spike, gave me this cool little ornament that he made. It's a little Sparky Pup, as you can tell by the colors, and the muzzle! You can even see that the little guy is mitted.

I love it, thank you for making it puppy! Good boy!

Duct Tape Boy

2011-12-20T10:05:00.000-08:00

It had been a while since I tried to do any kind of duct tape bondage, so I decided to do a mummification scene with the boy (Dvous1). The base layer of using a thick black pallet wrap, I have to admit, is not the best idea, because the size of the roll is so large it is hard to get it even. to the duct tape layers on top, even after pain staking laying out, end up not being as smooth.

But ended up still looking hot!

Blogs to Follow - happyfrosh's happy place

2011-12-20T09:28:00.001-08:00

Building Pain Tolerance - A Follow up

2011-12-20T09:28:00.000-08:00

I should cover a couple of quick thoughts here regarding the post that I put up yesterday regarding Pain Tolerance.

First, one of the pups I respect and hope to get to meet in person one day is bootbrush, and love following his blog (located at http://bootbrushpup.blogspot.com). He recently posted up his own thoughts on this topic and it was definitely very interesting. You have to check it out.

Also, a little mortified that I keep misspelling tolerance. Gots to quit writing these posts first thing in the morning when I am not fully awake!

I also wanted to say that I am a little concerned that I may have left the wrong impression of totally shitting on those that I referred to as the newer kinks because not everyone practices this form of building that I talked about. My thoughts are broken into these three points:

Still Learning - I am probably the most familiar with the rubber community, primarily because I know some of the guys that have been around for years in it and have heard the history, and I can tell you even in the rubber world things are still evolving. I tend to think of rubber has reaching a level of adolescence on the path to maturity, as opposed to the leather community that is in his more advanced years. The other kinks that are a part of the new kink worlds (like the pups, pigs, furries and gear heads) are in various stages but still early in the development. I am not deriding anyone for not having the traditions but rather calling out that while we tend to rebel against the old guard traditions a bit, there are still things we can learn and take as our own.
Still my favorite - As I said in my post, I identify more with the newer kink worlds rather than the old guard, but I really didn't explain why. I hinted to it back in my post regarding MIR. All the groups that I identified as being the new kinks have one common trait - JOY! The party that I went to at Rubberasylum's there was a great deal of happiness and frolicking good times (and a lot of very cute furry boys and pups). MIR was a joyful event. I compare that to the forays I have done into the old guard groups, and while there are good times to be had, there is always a heaviness to the parties and events. I challenge you to look around at IML (the great mixing pot of kinks) and not tell me that on the whole the gear heads/rubberboys/pigs/pups are all expressing the fun they are having much more openly than the leather crowd. Not that they aren't having a good time, but they a bit more dour about it. My choice is the more joyful side.
Nothing Wrong with the other - I may have indicated that the approach of going for intensity right away was not for me, but I don't necessarily want to say that it has no place. Creating connection and reaching levels of intensity that take the sub on a journey are not necessarily always needed. I respect the fact that some of the newer boys can take a beating that I am never going to, and be able to take it right out of the gate. I just want to also point out to them there is another approach that is worth exploring as well, and I hope they are finding those connections, those moments of true intensity that bring a boy and Sir to a new place between them. But I must also acknowledge that sometimes, some subs just want to be a prop, and that is ok if everyone is on board with that.

This is a subject that can go on forever, and I have to think that perhaps I should write from the perspective of a Dom and what they get out of taking someone on this journey. Or perhaps I should do a detailed write up of my next visit with my puppy, since he and I have those connections I am talking about and looking forward to creating a new one very soon.

One of my favorite parts of exploring these kinks is just how many facets there are. I am looking forward to exploring them all.

Building Pain Tolerence

2011-12-19T09:06:00.000-08:00

The ability to receive pain and reaching pain thresholds (and even pushing beyond them) have been on my mind lately. Primarily because I have been witness to some various forms of pain inducing scenes and been a part of them as well, and there are some surprising differences in the nature of who is implementing them.

First let me take what some may consider Old Guard techniques (that is a convenience term only, I don't particularly believe that term is what people think it is). When observing those that keep the Old Guard leather traditions there does seem to be a real effort on the Top's part to build the sub's pain threshold and take them on a journey. I have witnessed numerous times when the instrument's used to induce the pain, take for instance whips or floggers, the Top would increase the intensity of the scene over time, by getting heavier instruments, increasing the intensity of the swing, or increasing the rhythm, all in an effort to reach that moment of floating that comes from the endorphin rush as well as the sub being so completely in the moment they lose connection to all else, creating a moment of bliss.

That journey often looks like this:

I would contrast that to what I have seen in some of the newer kinks, often populated by younger kinksters that are just starting out in their kinks, and often do not hold strict reverence for the traditions of the leather community. In many ways I am much more in that world that I am in the leather crowd, as I count the new kinks as being the rubberist, the pups, the pigs, and the gear heads, all of which I identify with. And recently become more and more exposed to the furries, who is also part of the new group.

For these new kinks, the approach to the application of pain can vary a great deal, including following that same pattern. My first foray into heavy CBT followed the same path, with growth in intensity building over time until I reached that moment of bliss.

The concern that I have is that I have also seen those in the newer kinks go for intensity that seems to start out quite heavy, with little in the way of building in technique or allowance for the sub to reach a plateau. There may be some variance in the intensity, but seems to be a more binary approach, between heavy, and a little less than heavy.

It almost seems as if the approach is more like:

Don't get me wrong, I don't think that there is anything wrong with this approach. There are a lot of people that can go to this spot. There is a local kinkster that can immediately go to the spot of getting kicked in the balls right away. And god love him for it, because I can't. Not my thing and tends to just piss me off. But I have been witnessing numerous times of scenes with newer kinksters that just go right to the intensity.

It has been on my mind because I told someone recently at a party that I am not into impact play. Those words felt flat even as I said them, especially considering there are several videos out there now of my nutts getting some pretty good abuse. So I have been thinking about why it is that I said it.

There are a couple of beliefs that I have come to since exploring the one particular form of impact play, CBT. While those that go to a certain intensity level immediately, I tend to believe from my own experience that my ability to reach levels of endurance and in fact reaching that point of bliss depends not only on building within a scene, but raising the baseline from scene to scene, creating a connection between Dom and sub.

Over time, as the sub's experiences increase with coping with the pain, the starting point is higher and higher, creating an ability in the scene to start out more intense. Thus experienced subs can take higher and higher levels of pain. This looking like this:

Notice how as the number of scenes increase and as the sub's baseline starting point is higher each time, the more flat the path to get to the end point becomes. The plateaus become less and less of a differential, and therefore less necessary.

So when you compare that with those that just go for intensity in their impact play, without paying attention to the baseline building, are likely mimicking what they see from a sub that has received good training and has built their baseline up to the point where they start off high. And it really makes me wonder if the sub is able to get to that same place of blissful "living-solely-in-the-moment" feeling that someone under a more skilled hand gets.

There are those that may disagree, but I will give you two proof points as to why I have come to believe this.

In 1972 a study was conducted where subjects were given stimuli in the form of electro-shocks, with a control group and another group that received information about the pain they were going to receive. What they found is that the subjects more informed about the experience were able to endure higher levels of pain than those who did not, primarily because the process of becoming informed of what was happening to them build bonds of trust and decreased the subject's sense of impending danger, allowing for them to endure more than those that didn't have those bonds.

A few years ago another study was conducted with patients to see if their ability to cope with chronic pain could be affected by the use of mediation, with a surprising and marked increase in the patients ability to tolerate the pain after only a few sessions of meditation, and a subsequent reduction in their dependence on pain medication. This was attributed primarily to the psychological affects of the mediation to create calm, trust and faith in the process.

I find it hard to believe that most sub's have the ability to reach higher levels of pain tolerance from those that practice a technique of just going for intense pain from the beginning. The sub doesn't have the time to learn from the experience, gain trust, or reach levels of inner calm by becoming acclimated to the pain they experience before being taken to the next plateau.

In fact I think in those cases sub is merely a prop as a part of expression of sadism. So when I am saying I am not into impact play, I am more saying I am not interested in being someone's prop but rather to be taken on a journey to reach new levels and experiences that I never did before, and I need to know the person inflicting the pain as the control and ability to take me there.

And I wonder if the traditions that existed in the leather world were there to help teach that to the new sadists among us.

Past Play: Dvous1 Sports Gear

2011-12-19T08:55:00.001-08:00

Pulling back up some of the old pics, ran across this little gem of a collection, with the hubby all tied up and ready to be abused in his UA gear and gagged with my jock.

Any guesses what happened to the poor boy after the last photo!

Blogs to Follow - Pup Nitro's blog - International Leatherboy 2011

2011-12-19T08:55:00.000-08:00

Video - Rubber Puppy Play - Part 3

2011-12-18T09:59:00.001-08:00

One of the best parts of having a connection with a special boy is that the scenes you have with them are so much fun. HeroPup is definitely one of those special boys, and I always look forward to the times I get to spend with him.

In Part 1 we spent a lot of time with him in pup mode, which was fun to see and definitely fun to feel as the pup played with his bone for the night. And in Part 2 getting the pup all trussed up in the sleepsack, straps and rope, and edging him while the electro pounded his ass ended up making me super horny. I will also point out that in everything I post, there is a lot left out, and there certainly was in this scene that I didn't show between Part 1 and 2.

So after the pup came and I took him out of the sleepsack, I wanted to try combining a few things that I hadn't done with the pup for a while. Rimming him is always fun and he makes such wonderful noises when i do it. And it is fun to be see what the pup does when I am tied up and he has the control for a bit.

The result of all that together is this video, which ranks right up there with the hottest things I have done, and hope you enjoy it as well. The puppy did a great job!

Gear Used in this Video
Tailored Heavy Rubber Hood Zip Back
Latex Cat Suit Cod Piece Shoulder Zips
Eros Tek ET302R 2 Channel Remote Controlled E-Stim Unit
Electrified WMCBP (Electro Butt Plug)

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=r2hhh-G260-

Just hanging about

2011-12-18T09:59:00.000-08:00

Blogs to Follow - Sir Alan's Blog - International LeatherSir 2011

2011-12-18T09:58:00.001-08:00

Getting ready to be adorable!

2011-12-18T09:58:00.000-08:00

Checkout Rubberzone!

2011-12-15T21:45:00.000-08:00

Hey, lookey there! Those perves over at Rubberzone ended up using the photos from the pup in the garden! Awesome! Some times the those last minute photo shoots that just pop into my head end up being fun!

Blogs to Follow - Captured Heroes

2011-12-15T21:40:00.000-08:00

My Follow Up - A Personal Struggle

2011-12-15T21:39:00.000-08:00

So the last message I posted I was feeling a bit down primarily due to a bad situation that is happening outside of my personal life. While I appreciated those that suggest it may be season effective disorder or something similar, the problem is that in the last few years I have been in the same spot for the same reason, even when it was sunny.

When I get to these spots I have to dig deep and find some new places of inspiration, to try to make things better and get my head back into a better spot.

And it helps to have help.

First, there have been some great messages that I have received from a variety of places. I want to take a moment to thank all those who gave the words of encouragement from the readers of this blog, I do greatly appreciate it and will follow up with each individually.

Another big help was an opportunity to do some teaching again. I lead a class today through some fast paced training on deep dive techniques in a particular application, and the feedback I got was inspiring. And it reminded me that was one of the things I hoped to be doing all the time. Be a better teacher. Be a better student.

So, going to try to get started again and take a chance on looking at the world in a different way.

The problem that cause the whole thing is not going away soon, but I am starting to understand I just need to focus on getting the hard work done that is needed to get out of it.

So let's get back to it!

A Personal Struggle

2011-12-10T10:19:00.000-08:00

One of the reasons that I created this blog wasn't just to show porn pics and vids of my sex life, though there is a part of me that knows having to prepare content for this blog spurs me to think about my scenes and make them better.

But the other component of the site was always supposed to be a personal exploration of my kink life as well. There are plenty of blogs out there that post one kink image after another, not really sharing anything of themselves. And I am not knocking anyone's choice to do that. But for me I felt that what makes a more compelling blog to follow is that there is some sort of connection to the author of the blog.

And so in the beginning I endeavored to make this blog more personal and be an expression of who I am.

Lately I haven’t been doing that much.

There are still many aspects of my life that I don't share. My relation with my husband does come in here, but only to a point, as he and I have an intimate relationship that is too complex for ever putting into writing here. Also, I have made reference to my collared puppy a great deal on here, but there is a level of intimacy and complexity to our relationship that is not possible to express here, so for the most part I don't.

My current struggle is having to do with motivation.

There is a great deal I want to do. I want to go to the gym more often and finally get to a place where I can be comfortable with my body, something I have never felt (truly never, which is hard to say really). There is the next level to this site that I hope to initiate, but there is more work ahead than not and I get lost in the details. There are a lot of boys that I want to play with but I tend to focus only on the ones I have played with before, because it is easier than having to play with someone new.

I am just not motivated. And if it ever appears that I am it is because of a great deal of mental effort on my part to make it happen, and I am just tired.

There is an aspect of my life I rarely talk about here, my professional life. I don't think that it is appropriate for me to air my dirty laundry here, but I can say I am in strife with a couple people at work on a near constant basis, and the animosity, negativity, vindictiveness and constant game playing is taking its toll on me. In many ways my professional life is even more amazing than my sex life, as I get to participate in and be a leader in some incredible projects. But this other problem is making it hard to find the joy in anything that I used to.

The reality is that I am in a negative spot in my life. Despite having found the true love of my life and a home life that is comfortable. And despite that the most adorable and fun boy I have ever met is my collared pup. And despite the fact that I an amazing sex life, which I only share about half of here (not quite porn star level, but still).

Despite all that I am in a negative place. I noticed it last night when at a smaller type of party with a friend. Something in me noticed that I am in a negative spot, as I was mostly cutting down things or stand offish at times. This issue at work is affecting everything I do, and even though I have great things in my life they are being affected by this one issue.

It is hard sometimes to participate in things. We threw our own party, and I was both tired and dealing with this depression at the same time, so it felt at times as if I was not fully there at the party. I attended another party last week, and while it was fun, it was also apparent at least to me that I was holding back, not fully participating like normal.

I am at a point where I wonder if I want to continue doing much play with anyone else other than the tight circle of friends I have. I have come to wonder if I should continue with this blog, or just let it pass along into the ether. I have come to wonder if it is time for me to let go over ever finding a Dom that I can embrace as a mentor, guide and someone I can explore my submissive side with. I have come to wonder if it is time for me to embrace my Dom side entirely and just let go of my submissive side altogether, something I know will happen one day but feels closer than the schedule I had planned.

I don't know the answer to these questions, actually, and there is a part of me that needs to spend time thinking about them rather than just ignoring the issues and hope they go away. But nothing will get done until the work issue is resolved.

Is there a reason I am sharing all this? Only one. Perhaps the struggles that creep into my sex life are similar to others, and what I go through can help others.

But the main reason to share this here is to just get it written. To toss out into the universe these things that I am feeling rather than keep them bottled up.

And maybe then a path to something better can be found.

interesting hood & collar

2011-12-10T10:18:00.002-08:00

How to properly store a rubber boy

2011-12-10T10:18:00.001-08:00

Blogs to Follow - Loki's Journey

2011-12-10T10:18:00.000-08:00

Video - Rubber Puppy Play - Part 2

2011-12-09T08:53:00.000-08:00

So after a bit of puppy play that you saw in Part 1, it was time for HeroPup to go into some bondage. First I put in the Electro Butt Plug into him, and put on his Tailored Heavy Rubber Hood, though I added a gag and blindfold under the hood to make sure he was going to be in his own little world.

One of the fun aspects of traveling for work is playing in a hotel room is trying to find a way to use what is in the room for bondage. In the past I have used side tables and other furniture, trying to be creative. Here the desk had this rolling little table extension that I used as a bondage table, which worked really well.

The puppy said he hadn't been in heavy bondage for a while, so I wanted to make sure he was as secured as possible. Extra straps to the sleepsack, and having the full latex catsuit underneath, then rope securing it all down to the table, all to make sure he wasn't going anywhere.

I can only show so much in these videos, but the reality is that the puppy was edged much more than what was in this video, which as you can see I greatly enjoyed.

Looks like he did as well.

Will be a Part 3 soon.

Gear Used in this Video
Tailored Heavy Rubber Hood Zip Back
Latex Cat Suit Cod Piece Shoulder Zips
Eros Tek ET302R 2 Channel Remote Controlled E-Stim Unit
Electrified WMCBP (Electro Butt Plug)

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=bLaeY-G360-

Rubber Suited

2011-12-07T22:14:00.000-08:00

Mounted puppy

2011-12-07T22:13:00.001-08:00

Blogs to Follow - Rubber Canuck

2011-12-07T22:13:00.000-08:00

Video - Rubber Puppy Play - Part 1

2011-12-06T10:06:00.000-08:00

I have been looking forward to bringing this video set to you for a while, for two big reasons.

One is I have known HeroPup for a while now. He is a special boy, an awesome puppy and one of the nicest people you will ever meet. We always have fun whenever I get the chance to see him, which isn't often enough.

Past Videos of HeroPup can be found at:
HeroPup Part 1
HeroPup Part 2
HeroPup Part 3

For this trip we only had the evening, and the play fell into three separate parts. In this one, was just some regular puppy play, getting the boy into the headspace before we moved on to the heavier bondage. That will come soon!

As you can see, he was a very good boy!

Gear Used in this Video
Codpiece Boxers
Latex Cat Suit Cod Piece Shoulder Zips
Rubber Dog Hood
Square Peg Puppy Tail
Padded Fist Mitts

Direct Link to Video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=rpjMR-G160-

A very tight suit

2011-12-06T09:20:00.000-08:00

Layers of gear

2011-12-06T09:19:00.001-08:00

Service Puppy

2011-12-06T09:19:00.000-08:00