by pup bouncer
~Before I begin let me thank our Host, Sparky for allowing me this opportunity to share with you all my experience(s) as a newbie pup on his journey of self-realization, fulfillment and ultimate sexual enlightenment! *Pounces and licks Sparky happily ^^*~
As long as I could recall I have had the desire to gear up and have fun. At first it was just a little spattering of spandex, spurred by the TV show Power Rangers, then later moved on up, as I hit puberty, into full-on sexually explosive gear-mania. Playing football in High School helped me find my inner "gear pig", I guess you could call it, as after each practice (or nearly each practice, hehe) I would run home to furiously beat off; covered in sweat, wearing my Under Armor and football pads and practice bottoms (also padded) with my socks pulled up, all dirty and grimy from a hot summer days workout in the sun. Not to mention seeing all the cute boys I had crushes on all geared up grunting and sweating and working with and around me...running into and piling on top of me....smelling them and tasting their sweat. Oh my, I am getting distracted...hurrmm.... where was I? Ahhhh, those were the days.....(getting distracted is one of my lesser qualities but it's expected from hyper puppies so s'all good!) Oh yes! next paragraph!
I never realized I was a particularly "kinky" guy until I came out to myself and everyone else at 20 years old, though, and shortly after, bought my first Zentai suit. Something about full-body encasement turned me on something fierce and made me crave some form of bondage to go along with it. This is about the time I discovered my submissive side as well. I loved topping guys (during regular sex) but submission is the role/position that I felt I truly belonged; sadly, I was not able to fully express myself until very recently this year, after I discovered Puppy Play!
The minute I saw the gear pups wore... the attitude they had... the mental place they took themselves, and the way they pleased their Handlers/Masters/Trainers/Owners, I KNEW it was for me. I just knew it; you know those intuitions or gut feelings you follow sometimes, and they just, by their very nature, lead you down the right path(s) in life? Yeah, this was totally that way for me and I had not a single doubt about it being exactly who I was; in my soul and in my heart. I knew I was a pup, or at least had the essence of being one, for a long time prior to discovering this form of play, but actually seeing it all made it come together for me and a light bulb went off in my head -DING- and every kink, every fantasy, every desire and even NEW ones started coalescing into this awesome tennis ball that I just had to munch on, chase and bring back to my very own hunky Master X3...
Discovering it, I found, was just the beginning of my Journey. I have since made many internet and \real life friends who are so supportive, awesome and fun pups and people to talk to and share my experiences with that I feel right at home even if I am miles away from so many wonderful people. One of the first people to message me when I tentatively stepped into the community has now become my very own Trainer/Sir who has really just fallen for me and I for him in sooooo many ways. I wasn't even looking for that special someone to hold my leash and actually COLLAR me, not yet anyways, or so I thought, but it just felt so right. That intuition, it can be a powerful bastard that you end up giving in to more times than naught.
Sir is so gentle and caring....He made me realize some very new things about myself and gave me confidence when I needed it most after a very rough chapter in my life was wrapping itself up. I worried about if this was really for me, if I was just interested for the wrong reasons or if I would even be able to form my own personal pup space (the head space pups find themselves delving into when they become their alter-ego) or if I was "doing this the right way." What I discovered is that there is no "right way" there is only YOUR way. No matter what, if it feels good to you and it works for you and you LOVE doing it, roll with it.
Sir has helped me grow in so many ways already in such a short amount of time, it is staggering and incredible all at the same time to sit back and think that just a month or so ago I was a timid, scared, freshly single young man, self conscious little newbie with not a single god damn idea about what he was doing or where he wanted to go. All I knew was I got a raging hard-on from the videos and photos I had seen (I have Sparky and RubberAsylum and xtube to thank for that! XD) and that I wanted to be apart of this community badly...that it was a lifestyle I HAD to have for myself. In such a short amount of time I have forged new relationships with people with so much experience and who have so much kindness in their hearts for a newbie pup that I am humbled...DEEPLY to my little puppy core to be in the presence of these men learning things and experiencing things with them. I guess it's because I am so eager that it makes them eager in turn to show me the ropes (no pun intended..well, maybe a little) and I an super respectful towards others.
That's something I will get into for all you newbie pups who have yet to experience this with a true Dom/Sir/Master: how to go about actually BEING a pup is all up to YOU as an individual, but certain...I dunno...rules or behaviors are expected of you, as a submissive. Respect and honesty/openness/communication being the key terms that come to mind first. But like I said, I will go into more detail in subsequent postings!
For now, this is just a little, hasty autobiography of sorts about me, Pup Bouncer, and how I got into puppy play and into the community in general (and I am still breaking out into new territory, I am by no means well known or anything of the sort, please make no mistake, lol). It was all luck really, coupled with, as I said, my eagerness to learn and experience things. For all you out there who are timid or scared of looking dumb or whatever, DON'T BE. I found out the easy way but if you actually LET GO of all that BS floating in your head and HAVE FUN and be yourself (cliche to say, I know but it IS true) you will find so many rewarding experiences; it will truly astound you what will come your way if you give yourself some confidence, put a little swagger in your puppy pounce and have fun YOUR way. Don't give a FUCK what other people think....chances are that if they don't dig pups they aren't worth your time anyways and if they think pup play is one way and one way only then they are narrow minded and not fun to be around at all and should be avoided. Bottom line you will find somebody who you click with, there's millions of kinksters out there, hehe. Just be your hyperactive, puppy selves and many good things with come your way!
Hell, just from following that basic principle/principles I have ended up with my first training collar, my own tags showing I belong to an Owner, and just a few days ago, got my first piece of rubber gear GIVEN to me by a wonderful Sir who was blown away by my enthusiasm and dedication (thanks to Him for the rubber pics of me)! And I didn't think I was being anything but myself! YOU can make a difference in your life and others around you by just letting go and exploring yourself. explore your inner pup and you will heap rewards onto yourself beyond your wildest imaginings. It really is true, take it from me ;-)